Depression Anxiety Suicidal

Are You Experiencing Depression, Anxiety or Suicidal Thoughts?

Knowing when you suffer from one of the following is the fist way to start your fight against them. This subject hits pretty close to home for me. I’ve suffered from all three of these mental illnesses from the age of eleven till now. I know I’m supposed to tell you that it gets better, that it will go away, and that’s the case for some people but sometimes it doesn’t and that’s my honest answer. However, even though it doesn’t go away, and you don’t get better, it does get easier to fight against. So, going forward with this subject there are a few things you should know. For instance, how to tell if you actually have some these mental illnesses, or what you can do to help you fight against them, and what these illnesses actually mean.

Knowing What You Have:

Knowing what you have is the best way to start moving forward. There are many tests you can take on the internet that can give you a general idea. You can also go to your doctor, even though he/she can’t really diagnose you, or refer you to you to someone who can.


  • Definition: A mood disorder that causes a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest. Also called major depressive disorder or clinical depression, it affects how you feel, think and behave and can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems.
  • Symptoms:
    • Mood: anxiety, apathy, general discontent, guilt, hopelessness, loss of interest, loss of interest or pleasure in activities, mood swings, mentally numb, or sadness
    • Sleep: early awakening, excess sleepiness, insomnia, or restless sleep
    • Whole body: excessive hunger, fatigue, loss of appetite, or restlessness
    • Behavioral: agitation, excessive crying, irritability, emotionless, or social isolation
    • Cognitive: lack of concentration, slowness in activity, or thoughts of suicide
    • Weight: weight gain or weight loss
    • Also, very common: poor appetite or repeatedly going over thoughts
  • Fighting it: Talk to your doctor, he will recommend a therapist of a counselor. That therapist can prescribe medications and they are also great non-judgmental people to talk to. If you would rather not talk to someone or you just don’t have finances to do so, you can fight it on your own. Find ways to channel your depression into something that is productive and not self-destructive, something you enjoy doing, for me that is writing whenever my depression gets bad again I write poetry or blogs like this, you could also try other things like drawing, or if you’re more into physical activity, you can try dancing, listen to music, boxing or something simpler, jogging. However, fighting it on your own will only work if are determined to get better. You must give it everything you’ve got.

Here is some helpful web links on depression:
NAMI – Depression


  • Definition: an emotion characterized by feelings of tension, worried thoughts and physical changes like increased blood pressure. People with anxiety disorders usually have recurring intrusive thoughts or concerns. They may avoid certain situations out of worry. There also many kinds of anxiety.
  • Symptoms:
    • Whole body: fatigue, restlessness, or sweating
    • Behavioral: hypervigilance or irritability
    • Cognitive: racing thoughts or unwanted thoughts
    • Also, very common: anxiety, excessive worry, fear, feeling of impending doom, insomnia, nausea, palpitations, poor concentration, or trembling
  • Fighting it: Dealing with anxiety can be difficult especially on your own. Taking it slow and facing your fear I find is the best way to fight it. For me I suffer from social anxiety, meaning I am afraid to talk to strangers or to be inside a big crowd, sometimes I’m afraid to leave my house. At first it was very hard for me to face my fear but eventually it did get easier. I push myself to face my fear at least once a day, by going outside and talking to a stranger, or by standing in a crowd.
  • Fighting Anxiety Attacks: This is a little harder to do, when you are in the middle of an attack it is very hard to think, so getting through them seems impossible. For me I call for someone I trust to come sit with me and help me through it, like my mom. Having someone there to help you focus on breathing or just to hold your hand it helps. However, if you are completely alone or you just don’t want anyone there with you, try playing music and focusing on your breathing, there has been times when I was alone, and I had to talk myself out of it, and I know it’s not easy, but slowing your breathing is the best way to break free from the anxiety attacks.

Here is some helpful web links on Anxiety:
Psychology Today – Anxiety


  • Definition: Thinking about or an unusual preoccupation with killing one’s self.
  • Symptoms:
    • Feeling helpless; trapped by emotional pain
    • Psychosis
    • Self-loathing
    • Hopelessness
    • Paranoia
    • Intense emotional pain
    • Feeing hopeless about a situation
    • Mood swings
    • Sudden changes in personality
    • Severe anxiety and agitation
  • Fighting Suicide:

This is one of the hardest things I have ever had to fight. I used to get suicidal thoughts daily, but I fought against them for the sake of the people I love, and I still am fighting, because giving up and giving in is not an option. Even though you think suicide will end the pain, it won’t, it will only pass it on to the people that love you. Even if you think that no one does, there will always be one person out there that does. They may not tell you every day that they love you, but I can promise you that they do. Even if you can’t fight for yourself, fight for your family, your siblings, your friends, you parents, even the people that put you down every day, prove those people wrong. Prove that you can get past this and that they no longer affects you. Stop telling yourself that you aren’t strong enough because you are.

If you can’t fight it on your own, which is okay everyone needs help sometimes. Try talking to a close friend or even a family member. You could also call the suicide hotline. They will help talk you through and can give you some pretty good advice. So please give them a call 1-800-273-8255 Today!

Here is some helpful web links on suicide:
AFSP – About Suicide

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